Friday, December 28, 2007

Two songs... Two overlapping worlds...



Yesterday, I was finishing a run when I heard two songs back-to-back on my iPod. The first song is one that has always resonated in my imagination - "Boulevard of Broken Dreams" by Green Day. This song has always captured my attention. Here are the lyrics:

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's f*%@ed up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...




The next song that came on is one of my recent favorites by the David Crowder Band -"Everything Glorious." Here are the lyrics:


The day is brighter here with You
The night is lighter than its hue
Would lead me to believe
Which leads me to believe

(chorus)
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours
What does that make me?

My eyes are small but they have seen
the beauty of enormous things
Which leads me to believe
there's light enough to see that

(chorus)
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours

From glory to glory
You are glorious You are glorious
From glory to glory
You are glorious. You are glorious
Which leads me to believe
why I can believe that


You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours

From glory to glory From glory to glory
You are glorious. You are glorious.
You are glorious. You are glorious.



Two songs... Two different worlds. In many ways, I feel the pull between the two. Sometimes I feel like I am walking in this world alone (even though I am surrounded by close family, friends and a wonderful church family) and other times I feel like God is making everything glorious in and through me (especially in those same relationships).

The apostle Paul often uses the image of taking off the old and putting on the new for the Christian life. The reality in this life is that followers of Christ will never completely feel like they have taken off the old and put on the new but they do get a foretaste of that fully changed life. The old and new worlds overlap.

One of my prayers for 2008 is that it will be a year that includes a movement toward living a life worthy of the calling God has made on my life and that I will identify more with Crowder's song as opposed to Green Day's song (though I still love both of them).

What songs capture your imagination as you look back on 2007 and look toward 2008???

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Flow of Criticism?


At various points in my life, I have realized that I am a very critical person. I am constantly assessing situations, systems, organizations, leadership, etc. and then forming my opinion.

Recently, I have recognized a clear pattern in my criticism. The specific aspects that I criticize are often my exact weaknesses. I have realized that the things that bother me the most about other people are the things that bother me the most about myself.

What should I do with this realization? One response is to use this pattern to help me identify areas that I need to turn over to the Lord in prayer and to ask my closest friends for help in identifying when I continue these patterns. I can choose to ignore this pattern of criticism equaling self-criticism or embrace the opportunity for change.

In 2008, one of my goals is to move toward guarding my tongue regarding criticism for others and instead point the finger on myself.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

My Timing (but not yours)


I am increasingly becoming aware of a pattern of communication and yesterday I was the one who was responsible for it. More and more, I am seeing how cell phone calls are made mostly when the caller is en route and has a few minutes (or more) to make the call. The receiving person may or may not be available at that time.

Yesterday, I called a friend on the way home from the church. My "commute" is a mere 5-10 minutes depending on the number of green lights. I wanted to check in briefly with my friend but I didn't want to open a long conversation because I knew that my family was waiting for me at home.

Do you see the issue here? I mentioned "me" or "I" in that description of the call. I didn't let my friend know ahead of time that I was calling. I was calling him on my own terms. In fact, the conversation probably left him frustrated because I basically asked him a few quick questions and then gave him an update on life and then cut him off because I had arrived home.

I have been on both ends of this type of conversation.

How many of your recent cell phone conversations have ended with, "I've gotta go because I just arrived at my destination"?

My guess is that a lot of them have... Is there something wrong with this picture?

Sunday, December 09, 2007

Picture of the Church?


I was driving around a few nights ago with my family looking at Christmas lights. We saw a well-decorated community and we turned onto the street leading toward the lights. As we turned, I noticed right away that the community was a gated community and I was locked out!

I was baffled...

Why would a gated community with 9-10 homes (that is all that were in the community!) decorate their homes to the extent that they did? Do they really believe that they are providing "holiday cheer" just for themselves? My thoughts wandered to the types of conversations they must be having inside their community...

"Hey, great lights John, I really enjoy them. I put my lights so that you and our street could enjoy them. I'm glad that we are not like other communities that have tons of cars coming through to look at our lights. We get to look at each other's lights and reindeer and santa claus figures and enjoy them. Maybe later this week, we can sing Christmas carols to ourselves and walk down the street. Isn't that going to be a blast?"

In many ways, I've witnessed some churches follow the same patterns in a different arena. We put on our best "show" and "lights" but oftentimes only think about ourselves and who is inside our 'community'.

My prayer and goal is that I would be part of a church that doesn't exist like that gated community that I saw the other night.

I wonder how many people visit a worship service or drive by churches and feel baffled like I did the other night?

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Worth reading...


This book brings together many of the themes and specific ideas that I didn't "get" in seminary. I found myself thinking, "Why didn't we cover this?" over and over and over.

Fee and Stuart demonstrate the necessity of both exegesis and hermeneutics in bringing the Bible to bear on life today. They provide numerous reminders of why every Bible reader/interpreter needs to ask what the text says first, then what the text means (in its original setting) and then and only then what the text means for us today.

If you feel confused (as many do) about what to do when you open up your Bible, then read this book and you will be better equipped to let God speak to you (and your church) through the Bible.

More specifically, Gordan and Fee engage each part of Scripture and provide a framework and examples of exegesis and hermeneutics for each. Once again, I found myself thinking, "Why didn't my seminary professors find it important to talk plainly about these tools for interpretation?"

In many ways, my seminary Biblical studies classes focused on either of two extremes. 1. The very detailed Greek or Hebrew text critical issues and the scholarship behind the decisions and decision-making process.
2. The very high level social issues that surround the controversial passages.

The day-to-day reading and interpreting of Scripture for the life of the church and the followers of Christ who happen to be reading the Bible were not covered...

SO, this book is worth reading...

Saturday, December 01, 2007

Building confidence


I finally put together our foosball table after months of having it sit (in pieces) in my garage. Laurie's parents gave us their foosball table and I have been lazy.

Cambria loves playing foosball and she wants to play 3049830489083509 times per day. The game can be dangerous for her because the handles of the table are at her head level. Every time I move the players, I have to make sure that I do not hit her face.

In spite of that challenge, I am enjoying playing with her more every time because I am seeing her confidence grow. She is learning how to hit the ball and stop the ball so that she can control the game. She is far from being a real player but I can see how each small action builds her confidence in playing.

I am avid foosball player. I have many many many memories of playing at church during middle school and high school and at camps throughout that time. I am looking forward to the day that Cambria can provide some real competition and we start keeping a family scoreboard!

Until then, anyone want to come over to play some foosball?

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Just when you thought...


Maybe it is because I am reading Karl Barth again...
Maybe it is because it is the Christmas season...
Maybe it is because Jesus is getting my attention...

but I am remembering what it means to be 'Christocentric' in my understanding of God and the world. Christocentric meaning Christ-centered, meaning Christ is the beginning and the end (and everything in between) for knowing God and the knowing my role in the world that God created and rules.

I was asked today by a small group leader for a recommendation for a study on the life and teachings of the apostle Paul. I was reading through Galatians and I landed on v. 3:13 - Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us, for it is written: "Cursed is everyone who is hung on a tree."

I remembered the background on this verse and God revealed a new insight to me that I had never considered. The background is Deuteronomy 21:23 and the assertion in the law of Israel that "anyone hung on a tree is under God's curse."

Saul (before Paul) lived his whole life with this assumption in mind. This assumption was apart from the revelation of God in Jesus Christ. Apart from Christ, his worldview was shaped by the assumption that anyone who was hung on a tree was under God's curse. The idea of God's anointed one (Messiah) fitting that description was a scandal!

BUT, just when he thought that he had God's ways all figured out, the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus Christ changed this specific assumption upside down and then turned Saul's world upside down based on God's revelation of himself in Jesus Christ.

Apart from Christ (and his turning this curse upside down), Saul would have had no reason to question his understanding of God. Saul could have kept his interpretation of Deuteronomy 21:23 but he changed his view of God in light (revelation) of the person and work of Jesus Christ.

This meditation challenges me to consider the conceptions of God that I have that stand apart from Jesus Christ and need to be reworked in light of Christ.

What "just when you thought..." assumptions do I have that need to be changed (repent = change of the mind)?

In his discussion of the doctrine of election, Barth reminded me to avoid relying on human experience or abstract conceptions as my starting point for knowing God when he says on p. 35 of II/2

It is only natural that in spite of all the accompanying good intentions and moments of truth, such statements and decisions are endangered by their doubtful and possibly erroneous starting-point. It is only natural that they can themselves become a danger, perhaps inevitably so. We must at this point recall the basic rule of all Church dogmatics: that no single item of Christian doctrine is legitimately grounded, or rightly developed or expounded, unless it can of itself be understood and explained as a part of the responsibility laid upon the hearing and teaching Church towards the self-revelation of God attested in Holy Scripture."


I'm looking forward to some more "just when you thought..." moments.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Upside Down


Everything is upside down from a few months ago. I lived on the East Coast a few months ago, now I live on the West Coast. I cheered for a team that I thought was heading to the playoffs (the Mets) a few months ago, now I still do not know how they failed to make it. I was an "everyday" person in the church without any expectations a few months ago, now I feel the need to be "on" all the time.

One other area is upside down - my reading life. In seminary, I found myself tired after a long day of theological reading and I drifted toward "practical" books in the evening - leadership, small group ministry, world movements, culture. Now, I swim in real life situations all day as a small groups pastor and I drift toward deep theological reading in the evening.

In the past few days, I returned to a theologian who challenged me during my time at Princeton - Karl Barth. I do not agree with all of Barth's theological starting points but I definitely agree with how he starts (and stays) with Jesus Christ in all of his theological reflections. I am reminded over and over (over and over and over) of God's fulfilled promises in Christ through reading Barth.

I am verbose and I oftentimes use more words than necessary to explain a concept or my feelings. Barth definitely fits that description and I actually enjoy reading his long long long descriptions and insights.

One of my closest friends at seminary challenged me to do an independent study on Barth in order for us to learn how to read him and be able to return to him in future chapters of life. I am in a new chapter of life and I feel like I am still able to read and understand Barth.

Everything is upside down but that is not such a bad thing...

Sunday, November 25, 2007

sometimes...


Sometimes I put on the shuffle option on my ipod and the songs just fall into place.

That happened tonight...

I went for a short drive to return some items the grocery store and library. I hit the shuffle option and then 4-5 songs hit me right where I was - November 24th, 2007 at 4:45 PM...

That time will never come again.

Life is moving fast and I need reminders of just how much I overlook God's grace that comes in more ways than I perceive.

Today, 4-5 songs that basically said, "Jeff, relax and enjoy life a little" brought me back to a state of joy and gratitude.

Shuffle away and see what happens...

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Deep as a Puddle?


Sometimes, I feel like I am a deep person. At other times, I feel like I just float through life. I do know that after my 3 year seminary experience, I have the potential to go deep on a variety of fronts.

Years ago, I sat down with a friend at Dunkin Donuts in Leesburg, Virginia and we talked about the purpose of the church. We witnessed how our church operated with a "come and see" approach with the goal of getting as many people into the building as possible on a Sunday morning. The working assumption was that a person would move from "trying out" a worship service to possibly investigating Christianity to possibly becoming a Christian and then over years and years of classes and sermons would then become a "strong" Christian who would serve in the church (and maybe outside the walls of the church).

We embodied discontent that night at Dunkin Donuts.

That friend introduced me to a few books that challenged my understanding of the church and one year later I found myself at Princeton seminary asking the same questions. I found some answers in my studies of missional theology. The church does not exist merely for itself, the church is called together by Jesus Christ and sent to engage the world with the gospel and to invite others into God's "sphere of rule." Being a Christian, means being a witness to Christ in all aspects of life all the time. I am convinced more than ever that the gospel is shared not merely by words (logical propositions that require intellectual agreement) but by deeds done in Christ's Spirit's power AND explanatory words. Christ is at work through his people.

I learned these patterns. I can envision how they can play out in the local church.

BUT, I still embody discontent right now (and there are no Dunkin Donuts out here near Seattle).

Why?

because I heard a description of the church a few days ago that was a deep as a puddle...

Puddles are not deep...

I already was tempted to give up on the local church and I am just getting started. Don't worry, I am not even close to giving up. In fact, I am more motivated than ever to seek the Lord's face for direction on how I can be faithful with my responsibilities as a small groups pastor so that I can enable my local church to engage our Internet-driven culture with the gospel of Jesus Christ.

If the guy who was with me at Dunkin Donuts (the donut) is reading this, then hear a word of thanks for some great discussions that still ring out in my soul today.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Empty


I remembered tonight why I need to run (and run often!). My last jog was probably 2 weeks ago. The past 1 1/2 weeks included preparing/preaching a sermon, teaching the final two classes on studying scripture, fighting a persistent cough/head cold and a zillion other responsibilities (felt that way).

The first thing to go in times of stress is exercise. I remembered tonight that I should carve out space for exercise as soon as those stressful times comes. I ran for a short 2-3 mile run and now I feel like a new person.

I do not think about anything when I run. I simply run. My brain is empty. I believe that my brain rests during times of exercise. My mind is always on the "go" and I need those times.

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Somewhere...


Every so often, I come across a song that simply captures what my soul is singing in that exact moment. I heard the song "Somewhere Only We Know" by Keane multiple times on the radio a few years ago but I never purchased the song. I heard the song again a few days ago and then looked it up.

Today, I took a walk near the Cedar River in my new town of Maple Valley, WA. In many ways, I was built for this town because there are 309483409834089 trails. I needed to step away from the details of church ministry and simply pray and be still before the Lord. I took a walk and I heard this song in the back of my mind, especially as I stood on a bridge and observed the clear water rush over the rocks below.

Here are the lyrics to the song... This is me. Period.

Keane - Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land,
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand.
I felt the earth beneath my feet,
Sat by the river and it made me complete.
Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

I came across a fallen tree,
I felt the branches; are they looking at me?
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.
SO if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know.

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So, tell me when you gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.
SO if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, so why don't we go,

Hmmm yeahh,

This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know
Somewhere only we know.

Monday, October 22, 2007

High point (in terms of sports)


This graph does not reveal any data that pertains to this topic. I just needed a graph to show that I am in a unique place as a sports fan. I have rarely been on the winning side of any sports team. Every year, I get excited about the possibilities and then come crashing down as the year progresses. I continue to work on preventing sports from influencing my outlook on life but I would lie if I said that I have purged myself of all such influences.

Today, I can say that after two horrible starts to my favorite football teams, they both are on a roll. UVA lost to Wyoming (who?) and then they reeled off 7 straight wins. In a similar way, the NY Giants (G-MEN!) lost to Dallas and Green Bay and then they have reeled of 5 wins in a row. They are both on the way up!

Why did I blog about this relatively insignificant development? I find myself blogging when my teams implode but I never capture the moment when they are on the way up. Today, I can claim that they are on the way up. Sure, they will lose and lose badly in the near future but I can claim victory today and that is all I am concerned about right now.

On another note, I have started to rediscover the joy of reading significant books by authors who have something more to offer than a recent trend. I should have some deeper thoughts in the coming days but I had to capture this moment.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Two choices


I am not a Rockies fan and this entry has nothing to do with baseball. The only baseball reference is to the manager of the Rockies who said yesterday that "in life, you are either humbled or you will be humbled."

I learned that lesson today.

I did not feel prideful after my sermon on Sunday but I did feel like I was feeling more at home at MVPC. Today, I had a difficult time pulling together the materials for my inductive Bible study class and I ended up tanking the class. I attempted to make copies of my materials and I created an insurmountable challenge (organizing and punching holes in 390483049830483048 pieces of paper). I barely had everything ready for the class and I was very flustered for most of the class.

The class participants (~40) followed my teaching for the most part and participated in all of the activities. I did not feel like I gave my best and I owe them more than I provided tonight.

Clint Hurdle, the Rockies manager, said it best, "You are humbled or you will be humbled soon."

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Lost in Music


I am posting twice in a day because I feel like it. :)

I am experiencing something that I haven't experienced in a long time. I am sitting down and getting lost in music. I have had an intense week and I am taking a break to do something that I enjoy. Years ago, a close friend asked me what I enjoyed doing the most. In other words, if I had free time, then how I would use it for enjoyment. I answered that I would turn up the music loud and get lost in a song (or two or 10 or more).

I don't know how or why I became "that guy" who stopped listening to music after I had kids but I have become that person. Every once and awhile though, I have a moment of rediscovery and I am moved almost to tears when I consider how much music can take me beyond myself. Of course, songs that help me focus on Jesus Christ, my wife, and the greater things of life are the ones that move me most.

I miss what I am experiencing what I am breathing in right now. Music...

Learning as I Go...


Today, I preached my third sermon at Maple Valley Presbyterian Church. I am far from a strong preacher and I feel like I learn something new each time. This morning, I took a few more steps forward.

I preached on Ephesians 5:21-33 and the sermon title was "The Essence of Marriage." The sermon was the fifth in a seven part series and David Diehl (head pastor) has preached all the other sermons. The theme of the sermon was that married couples need to intentionally nurture the new flesh (person) reality in order to experience their God-given friendship. The primary word picture was the chemical reaction that occurs between sodium and chloride to form a whole new compound - salt. A husband and wife come together like two chemicals and form a whole new person in marriage. If they do not intentionally nurture this new reality, then they will slip into mediocrity as separate individuals instead one unified flesh.

I had received some very helpful feedback from my mentor and others after my last sermon in September. I attempted to put some of those ideas into practice this time around. The main change from my view was I spent more time in prayer throughout the preparation. I can see how that played out in more ways than I can begin to summarize.

I have a long, long, long way to go as a preacher but I am learning to put myself in a position that let's God speak through me without calling attention to myself.

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Grace and A New Chapter

I am about to experience a new chapter in my life. Laurie bought me an XBox in 2003 (3 months before Cambria was born) and that started the Halo revolution. My memories of playing Halo on Valemount Terr in Leesburg, VA still rank as some of my favorite moments with my friends in my life. Halo 2 came into play during my time at Princeton Seminary mostly online with Virginia friends.

Tonight, I am about to jump into Halo 3. A friend (whose name will remain unspoken) has been amazingly generous by giving me not only an XBox 360 but also a copy of Halo 3. Any gamer will know that these gifts go beyond words in terms of generosity. Grace is a word that comes to mind as well.

A friend from my new home group called me tonight and invited me to join him in playing some Halo 3. I am rusty but I am ready to jump back in the game! Here is the difference from Halo 2 according to one source...

Halo 3 Vs. Halo 2

Posted May 17, 2007

For those still on the fence, here's a comparison of Halo 2 and Halo 3 to help you make up your mind.

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Why?


I realized once again this week that sports has more of a control on me than I would like. I tried to not let the Mets implosion impact any area of my life besides my sports side but I was unable to contain the overflow of disgust.

This morning, however, I woke up with a sense of freedom because I will not have to track with the MLB playoffs as closely in the coming weeks. I am leading a 7-week class on studying Scripture and preaching on Oct 14th so the Mets' choking ends up helping me.

Still, I realized how much my childhood love for the drama of playoff baseball remains in me. I do not want to completely cut off that passion for sports but I do want to cut off the sick feeling that I had when I saw that Tom Glavine gave up 7 runs in the first inning (hall of famer eh?)...

Am I capable of cutting off one without the other?

Monday, September 24, 2007

Nasty Celebration


Today was the final day in my long march through the Presbyterian ordination process. I was officially installed as an associate pastor at Maple Valley Presbyterian Church today and I am finished with filling out endless forms and attending endless meetings.

I will be the first to admit that I grew significantly through the process and I am a stronger pastor due to my intentional (required) times of reflection and examination. I was reminded from my reading of Chrysostom's "Six Books on the Priesthood" of just how serious my calling is into full-time church ministry. By God's grace, I am to play the role of leading God's people in their mission in the world.

With all that said, my family decided to celebrate by going to a Chinese restaurant tonight. I haven't found a good Chinese restaurant here in Maple Valley or the surrounding area yet. I have been blessed with some of the best places and my Dad has helped me discern between good restaurants and others. Tonight, we went to a place that was nasty. I can't think of any other word to describe the food.

I cannot remember a time that I have been that disappointed with a Chinese meal.

I miss NY City (China Town).
I miss the Jade Isle (childhood Chinese restaurant in NJ)
I miss the Silver Maple (parents' choice in NH)

I miss real Chinese food!

Anyone have any suggestions for the Seattle area? I need help!!!

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

simply showing up


A good friend of mine preached a sermon last year with the theme 'simply showing up' and I have encountered similar themes since then ("Just Walk Across the Room").

I rarely share on this blog about anything that is super deep or emotional but tonight the Lord called on me to show up in a place that I did not anticipate. At 3 PM, I was bringing Cambria home from preschool when I heard a series of fire trucks and ambulances drive by. Upon arriving home, I saw what appeared like an accident on the street at the bottom of the hill on which I live. Time went by and I heard helicopters outside and then I turned on the news and discovered that a teenage boy had been killed by a dump truck when he was riding on his skateboard right near my home.

I didn't know what to do. I delayed. I started to grill some burgers. And then I sensed the call to GO and be available.

I was scared and I didn't know what to do as I walked down the hill. I remember a close friend at CPE last year say "You need to show up and be the CHAPLAIN in tough times." With those words of encouragement and prayers, I arrived at the scene and talked with one of the EMT members. He said that a chaplain was on site but that there were many others who needed assistance. I stood next to a few families and a woman was hysterically shaking next to me.

I am not going to give any details but the next 2 hours was perhaps the most powerful moments for me as a Christian. I listened to one family (not the family of the teenage boy) in particular as they shared their grief, their loss, their guilt, their struggles, and their sorrow.

After the time, I asked to pray for the husband and he welcomed the prayer. I also was able to share one last time with the rest of the family before they left.

Simply showing up...

I thanked the Lord Jesus Christ for the privilege of being his listening presence and word of comfort and hope in the midst of this tragedy.

Who am I to play that role? Nobody special. Only that I was given the courage to follow the call of the very one who called me to serve that family in the first place.

My prayers are with this boy's family as they grieve the loss of their son.
My prayers are with the driver who accidentally hit the boy.
My prayers are with the family with whom I sat for 2 hours.
My prayers are with all the high school students who will be asking "Why?" tomorrow.
My prayers are with Maple Valley, WA as we mourn the loss of a teenage boy whose life should have continued beyond Sept 10th, 2007.

Please pray for all of us if you have read this blog entry... that is one way that you can show up for everyone mentioned above.

Friday, September 07, 2007

A Humble Reminder


I was able to relax this morning (my one true day off) and I take some time to reflect on my first month in full-time church ministry. The transition from NJ to WA was so intense that I barely took time to prepare for all of the changes. I had heard of the numerous pulls that would be put on my time and how I would be overwhelmed by the challenge of coming up to speed with everything.

Years ago, I remember feeling unworthy when I was asked to serve as president of the InterVarsity Christian Fellowship chapter at UVA. I remember thinking "they have the wrong person in mind" when they asked me to consider applying for the position. Later on, I decided to apply after spending significant time in prayer and reading through the stories of Moses, Isaiah, Jeremiah, and many others who questioned their ability to lead God's people. I was encouraged by how they all followed the call with God's provision, guidance, and grace.

I realized yesterday after 4 weeks in the locla church and from reading St. John Chrysostom's "Six Books On The Priesthood" that I need to return to that humble place. Chrysostom, in this writing, details why he does not feel worthy to serve in the priesthood, especially in light of the real struggles that face those in leadership. In light of this writing, who am I to think that I can lead and shepherd God's people on my own strength and own understanding?

Chrysostom provided this humble reminder on how I need guidance in leadership. He provided this description of the qualities of a person who leads in the church:

Consider, then, what qualities a person needs if he is to withstand such a tempest and deal successfully with these obstacles to the common good.
He must be dignified yet modest,
impressive yet kindly,
masterful yet approachable,
impartial yet courteous,
humble but not servile,
vehement yet gentle,
in order that he may be able to calmly to resist all these dangers and to promote a suitable man with full authority, even though everyone opposes him, and reject an unsuitable man with equal authority, even though everyone favors him. One thing along he must consider: the edification of the Church. He must do nothing out of hostility or favour.


He reminded me that I need to avoid the extremes of (1) pleasing people at all costs (2) alienating people.

He reminded that favor does not automatically equal true authority (authority that follows the pattern of Christ).

He reminded me that the goal is the edification of the church and not me or anything else related to reputation.

I need these humble reminders. That is why I keep reading leaders who have struggled through leadership in the church throughout the history of the church (not just the past 2 years).

Is anyone else challenged by his reflection?

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

First 'real' sermon


This past weekend, I delivered my first sermon as the small groups pastor at Maple Valley Presbyterian Church. I preached at two services and my prayer was that I would encourage MVPC to stand strong together through putting on the full armor of God and prayerfully taking concrete actions of faith. Here is the manuscript, I haven't posted anything like this before so here it goes...

Standing Strong Together
Ephesians 6:10-24
September 2nd, 2007 @ MVPC

Before we get started in Ephesians 6 this morning, I want to first say Thank You on behalf of my wife, my two daughters and me. After four packed weeks of activity, we are beginning to feel at home here in Maple Valley. We have experienced God’s love and grace through so many of you that I cannot even begin to count the number of ways that you have welcomed us. Yesterday, the staff came over to our house to paint and we covered most of the top floor of our home in 5 fun-filled hours. Laurie and I would have taken anywhere from 4-5 days to paint what we painted yesterday. I was reminded of how much the body of Christ can accomplish great things together. I was also reminded of how small groups, in this case the staff, flourish when they take action together to serve God and meet a specific need that he lays on the group’s heart. David took the lead and he relentlessly pursued the idea with the staff and they stepped up even though it was a beautiful day without a cloud in the sky. For that, and EVERYTHING else, I say “Thank You.”

This morning we are in the final chapter in the book of Ephesians and our passage is Ephesians 6:10-24. I have fallen in love with this book as we have heard messages from David, Will, and Steve. Ephesians is a faith-grounding letter that brings together the primary themes of the Christian faith. Will started this series by pointing us to Paul’s reminder in Ephesians 1 of God’s calling in our life; how Jesus Christ reveals that God is a pursuing God who calls us to a new life and provides the way to experience that life both now and for eternity. David then pointed to how followers of Christ share a common identity and how the church by its very nature should resist our tendencies toward racism and anything that separates individuals from each other. Will then challenged us to live a life worthy of the calling as seen in Ephesians 4. David then provided the sobering reminder that we are indeed responsible for putting on our new identity in Christ and turning from disobedience. Last week, Steve showed how this plays out in the concrete relationships as married couples, parents, children, employers and employees. He reminded us that we need to be filled with the Spirit of Christ in order to live a life of selflessness.

That brings us to today. In many ways, the last chapter in Ephesians is like the final dramatic scene in a movie or the best part of a song or the exciting moment in a sporting event. What are some common attributes of these? Think about these moments in movies, songs and sporting events. In many ways, each of these brings together everything that has been building up to that point. When you are watching a movie, you can tell when everything in the movie is coming to a head. In a romantic drama, the couple who has been apart for the entire movie comes together due to circumstances beyond their control but everything just seems right. In a song, the combination of the chorus and verses and the rhythm and notes leads up to a point where you find yourself closing your eyes to take in the sweetness of everything coming together. In a sporting event, it is like a Seattle Mariners game when J.J. Putz comes out in the ninth inning to AC/DC and everyone stands up in expectation that the game will soon be over. Everything comes together.

Ephesians 6 is that moment. Ephesians 6 brings everything together. Ephesians 6 is what you have all been waiting for. We don’t often talk about the Bible in those types of words, images, and emotions but we should. Just picture the apostle Paul writing this majestic letter, he must have been salivating at the opportunity to bring everything together in this final chapter about Jesus Christ and our life together in him. What would he say? How would he say it?

Let’s read it together… Ephesians 6:10-24 Page 830

“Finally, be strong in the Lord.” “Therefore, put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.” “Stand you ground.” “Stand firm.” The word “stand” appears throughout this passage and that is a clear indicator that it carries an important message to which we should pay close attention. Stand. God is encouraging us and commanding us to “Stand Strong Together.”

When was the last time you went to a beach at high tide? Or at least at a time when the waves were crashing to the ground? Picture with me how people respond to the ocean during those times of the day. Some people stay back and observe. Some people will walk up close to the edge of the tide and dip their toes in the water while thinking, “There is NO way that I am going into those waves.” Some people, and maybe you are this type of person, see this as a challenge and go directly into the ocean. For these people, the size of the waves invites a confrontation with God’s creation and an opportunity to test out whether they can withstand the brunt of the powerful waves.

I have to admit that I am that type of person and I always have been. I can clearly remember my first trips to the beach as a child. I often would go with my cousin Douglas. Oftentimes, we would end up at the beach right at high tide, right when the waves seemed two, three or four times taller than us. Even now, I can smell the salt water and feel the grains of sand under my feet and hear the repeated crash of the waves. Doug and I would team up together to take on the waves. We would create a pact that neither one of us would turn around unless we both agreed to give up or both of us ended up flat on our face in the sand. For us, this was fun! I can standing next to Douglas as wave after wave would smash into our bodies. Most of the time, we didn’t take a defensive posture. Instead, we would kick at the waves or throw our bodies into the waves or attempt to dive over them. We stood our ground together and we enjoyed every moment of it.

This morning’s passage reveals that whether we like it or not, whether we choose to recognize it or not, we are situated in that type of ocean. We have no choice in the matter. The preceding chapters in Ephesians have given us glimpses of the struggle that we encounter as followers of Christ. This chapter shows that we live in a world that oftentimes feels like the ocean waves are crashing against us week after week, day after day, and hour after hour. Don’t we feel that way when we you encounter challenges in life that threaten to knock us over? Don’t we feel that way as we look at our relationships and we realize that we struggle to get to a point of feeling like we are the spouses, parents, and friends that we would like to be? Don’t we feel that way when we give in to a temptation that plagues us and does not look like it is ever going to go away? Don’t we feel that the waves are crashing against us all the time?

You see, the apostle Paul did not leave us without addressing the sobering reality of these challenges. How did he address these concerns for those who heard this letter years ago? And how does God address these concerns in our lives as we hear this letter today? He encourages us to stand strong together. Stand strong together.

Let’s look at four different ways that these wise words play out this morning.

First, we need to “Stand! Being strong in the Lord.” Paul starts this section with the word “finally.” He is setting aside this section to give us the take-home message that he has been building toward throughout the letter. Another way to translate the word is “from now on,” meaning that in light of all that we have heard now we are live in a different manner. When is the last time that you have had a “stake in the ground” moment when you said to yourself, things are going to be different now? This weekend is Labor Day weekend, a natural point in the calendar year to reassess our lives and to purge the bad and hold on to the good aspects of life; a natural point to re-establish some goals and remove the activities that cloud our vision for life; a natural point to say “from now on” we are going to re-orient our lives toward Jesus Christ and one another.

How can we go about this re-orientation, this pointing our lives back to Jesus Christ? We are instructed to be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Our tendency in 21st century United States is to only hear these words in individual terms. In other words, to hear “I need to be stronger on my own.” The command, however, is meant for a group. Another way to say this would be “finally, all of you be strong” or “you all” or dare I say it “y’all” be strong.

Over and over in Ephesians and in other New Testament books, the body of Christ is a metaphor employed to describe the church. Jesus Christ is the head of the body and followers of Christ are connected to Jesus and to one another in the body. When is the last time that you reflected on the fact that as followers of Jesus Christ you are connected to him? Some of my favorite verses in all of Scripture are in the gospel of John in chapter 15 where Jesus describes himself as the vine and his followers as the branches. He says that if we abide (or stay connected) with him and he abides in us, then we will bear much fruit or flourish for him. In the same manner, when Paul encourages us to be “strong in the Lord,” the “in the Lord” points to the reality that Christians are “in Christ” or abiding in Christ.

When was the last time you felt “strong in the Lord”? For some of us, we may have never felt that or if we have it has been a long time since we could say that we have actually felt strong in Christ. For me, I feel strong in the Lord when I am with others who are also seeking to follow Christ. My home group is the primary example. I feel “at home” when I am connected to other people in the church beyond Sunday mornings. Over and over, as I have led small groups and small group ministries I have heard individuals say that they feel strong in the Lord when they are known by others, they are able to share their burdens with others, they are able to make a difference with others through serving. I believe that we all want to be a part of something greater than ourselves and that God has given us that desire to be connected with him and to one another and to do whatever God has gifted us to accomplish in this world.

We need each other. We need to stand strong together. As the waves of life crash against us, we need to “Stand, Being Strong in the Lord” together.


Second, we need to “Stand, Putting on the Armor of God.” The apostle Paul in Ephesians 6:11 says “Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.” Do you see the conflict here? The full armor of God is set against the devil’s schemes and vice versa. He goes on to explain further in v. 12 when he says “For our struggle is not against the flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” These verses have been a source of questions throughout church history. What is Paul describing? What can we figure out about this struggle from these verses? There are a numerous paths that we could take but this morning I want to focus on the fact that no matter how we interpret the nature of these entities, we have to constantly remind ourselves that life involves more than what we experience through our five senses, more than what we can touch, smell, see, taste, and hear.

We easily forget that we are in a conflict because there are more than enough distractions to capture our attention throughout the day. Like I said earlier, we are in a conflict whether we actively acknowledge that or not. Like the ocean waves, everything that pulls us away from Christ, from each other, and a world in desperate need of God’s grace constantly attempts to knock us over. So which type of opponent is more dangerous, one that you actively identify or one that is at work but you are unable to see it? Paul is reminding us that we need to look beyond our five senses and remember that more is happening in the struggle for our hearts and devotion.

So why does Paul encourage us to put on the full armor of God? He wants us to remember that we do not live in a neutral world. He wants us to remember that we have to actively struggle against that which would tear us away from God. He wants us to remember that we have access to not only the armor of God that equips us for the struggle but that we have access to Jesus Christ himself. Once again, the command “to put on the full armor of God” is given to a group. As the waves of life crash against us, we need to stand strong together, putting on the full armor of God.


Third, we need to “Stand, Receiving God’s Provision Together.” The apostle Paul lists the pieces of the full armor of God. We don’t have time to go through them one by one this morning. There are numerous studies on the significance of each individual piece and I can point you to those if you are interested. For today, I would like to focus on how we receive the last two items listed – the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit. God has provided what we need to stand strong together in our daily struggle.

This brings us back to the question that we have raised throughout our sermon series on the book of Ephesians. What are the roles in the struggle? Is God the one primarily fighting for us or do we have a responsibility? The answer is both. David talked about how we need to put off the old and put on the new. We wouldn’t be able to take this action apart from what God has done for us in Christ. As followers of Christ, we have to still have to act and give our best effort in the struggle knowing that God is ultimately giving us everything we need.

In v. 13, Paul says “and after you have done everything.” The verb that he uses there is the same verb that he used in Philippians 2:12 when he says to “work out your salvation with fear and trembling.” The word means to work through or to be successful in the face of obstacles. Isn’t this what we want in the Christian life? We want to be successful in the face of obstacles. We want to overcome the things that keep us from God and from each other. In light of Steve’s sermon last week, we want to overcome that which keeps us from being good friends, spouses, parents, sons, daughters, employees, and employers. We are in a constant struggle and we need God to come to our rescue (salvation) and his Word for strengthening, direction, and encouragement (sword of the Spirit, the word of God).

Again, this weekend is Labor Day weekend - To labor, to work through. to overcome obstacles. Paul is reminding us to put on the full armor of God that God has provided and to stand strong together as we seek to overcome our daily obstacles by God’s grace. As the waves of life crash against us, we need to “Stand, Receiving God’s Provision Together.”


Fourth, we need to “Stand, Taking Action Fueled by Prayer.” Paul gives these wise words after finishing the list of the pieces of the armor of God, “And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.” Like Steve said last week, we cannot expect anything to change unless we are filled by the Spirit of God. The apostle Paul shows us that prayer is a key in living this kind of Spirit-filled life.

He draws out two requirements for our prayers. First, prayer is not an option. This verse makes that very clear. In fact, Paul makes the case for the all-encompassing need for prayer by using the word “all” or “always” four times. On “all” occasions, with “all” kinds of prayers and requests, “always” keep on praying, for “all” the saints. There is no time off. There is never a neutral moment.
Second, prayer needs to be a communal exercise, not just an individual undertaking. There are obviously times for individual prayer but we see here how we need to be in prayer together if we are to stand strong together.

We see this in the two commands that are easy to miss. He says to be alert or watchful. The word for this action means to “look after, or care for” as in leaders who keep watch over their people as seen in Hebrews 13:17. This is not a neutral watching but alertness that involves deep caring for other people. This reminds me of a neighborhood watch program. In that program, if it is working, individuals do not merely look out for themselves but they look out for the entire neighborhood. They are keeping watch.

The other command is to always keep on praying for all the saints. There is a devotion and perseverance in these prayers. Did you notice the small phrase “for all the saints”? They are constantly looking out for one another. Who is looking out for you? Who are you looking for? As the waves of life crash against us, we need to stand strong together, taking action fueled by prayer.


So what is our response to all of this? If we truly are in a daily, moment-by-moment struggle then what practical steps can we take to stand strong together here at Maple Valley Presbyterian Church and wherever God has us in our weekly endeavors? I’ll give you three quick responses to consider.

First, we need to remember the full picture. Every day we need to wake up and be reminded that we do not live in a neutral world. There is a struggle and we are fooling ourselves if we think that reality is only found in what we can touch, taste, smell, see, and hear. We need to remember the full picture. We need to encourage each other to spend time reading and studying Scripture with others so that we can be reminded of the truth and of how God has given us the full armor of God in light of this struggle.

Second, we need to initiate concrete actions. God has given us everything that we need but we have to intentionally act. “Put on” on the new self. “Put on” the full armor of God. We do have a choice. We can ignore reality and let all that opposes God pull us from God, from each other, and from the world that desperately needs God’s grace or we can stand strong together and take our stand against the devil’s schemes.

I want to pause to highlight of specific scheme. We heard a few weeks earlier in Ephesians 4:27 that we should not let the devil get a foothold. That verse refers to letting anger go unchecked and letting it lead to sin. Everything that opposes God wants us to be divided – friendships to dissipate, marriages to crumble, parent-child relationships to go sour, employees and employers to lack trust in one another, individuals to remain disconnected from others. As followers of Christ, we are given the command to be reconciled to one another, to forgive each other and to take the initiative in making things right between each other. These are hard words.

Brothers and sisters, if we are to stand strong together, then we have to be united. That doesn’t mean that we all have to think the same exact way or agree on specifics on every interpretation of Scripture or issue. It does mean that we are, as God commands in Ephesians 4:31, “to get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.” We need to take concrete action with one another. I want you to take a moment and think about someone with whom you need to work out some “stuff” in your relationship. Maybe it is someone who you need to forgive or someone who has wronged you. It may be someone in this room right now. Consider how you can contact that person this week and schedule a time when you can sit down face-to-face and try again to be reconciled.

Someone gave me this sobering reminder a few years ago and I followed up on his wise words. I called the person and set up a time to meet. When we got together, I shared that I felt wronged by his specific actions and he eventually acknowledged the problem. The conversation was difficult and awkward but we moved on from that time without the bitterness that marked our relationship up to that point. Friends, we need to stand strong together and initiating concrete actions like seeking or extending forgiveness will enable us to do that.

Our last response is we need to prayerfully watch and persevere together. We cannot expect to live the Christian life on own. There are too many ruts. We need God and we need each other. God has given us prayer as the means for us to experience Spirit-filled lives together. Steve will pick up on the theme of prayer next week.


So I conclude with one of my favorite questions in sermons. Who cares? Who cares about all of this talk regarding standing strong together in the midst of a struggle that seeks to pull apart you from God and others. Who cares? I know one person who cares and that is Jesus. He cares. That’s why he wants you to care too.

What’s at stake is our very lives. Brothers and sisters, we do live in desperate times and there is not a lot out there that is seeking to build up your relationship with God and others.

That is why we emphasize home groups and other small groups so much here at Maple Valley Presbyterian Church. We are a “church of small groups” because we know from Scripture and from our life experience that the waves of life will knock us over unless we stand strong together. On this Labor Day weekend, consider how you can, in Paul’s words in v. 13 “do everything to stand” and that consideration must include a serious commitment or re-commitment to a small group in the coming year. We want to be people who overcome obstacles and live the Spirit-filled life that allows us be the friends, parents, children, employees and employers that we want to be. Friends, we cannot stand alone. We need to stand together.


I think back to when Doug and I would stare at the ocean waves and then look at each other and make the pact to stand together against the crashing waves. Today, we need to have a similar moment as we enter this coming year. Will we agree to stand strong together and do everything, by God’s grace, to make that happen?

As we transition now to the Lord’s Supper, we enter into this time knowing that we are one body. Praise God that he did not leave us alone to take on these challenges. Christ is not dead but he is alive and he wants to help us stand strong together. He is the unchanging God whose promises never fail and he promised that he would be always be with us. We are one body and during this time we should not only consider our own lives but also how we interact with the rest of the body of Christ, especially those whom we need to forgive or be seek forgiveness from. May we be strengthened again as we continue to consider how we indeed can stand strong together here at Maple Valley Presbyterian Church and wherever God has called us to share his grace with the world.

Brothers and sisters, let’s stand strong together.

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Starting at the "top"


I read in some book (a very important one) that the way to be first is to be last and to be great a person must be a servant. I also have heard about that the one thing that matters is faith expressing itself through love (Galatians 5:6).

Today, the two came together as the staff at the church with whom I am serving came over to paint rooms in our new home. We covered (2 coats of paint) our dining room area, living room area, main hallway, and front stairway in less than 5 hours! The joy came not merely from the fact that these walls were painted but instead from the fact that I could accomplish a task together with some great new friends and colleagues. The same job would have taken me and Laurie days.

I am once again overwhelmed by God's grace that came through these wonderful people. I am a small groups pastor and I saw today how my small group (church staff) expressed its faith through love by sacrificing time, energy and a beautiful Seattle day (80 degrees and no clouds) to make me and Laurie feel more at home.

The "top" (the church staff) showed its greatness by being willing to serve. I am privileged to be a part of a group of individuals who together make up a team with that mindset shaped by Christ.

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Error Code 20

No pictures for this post... just an error code that I received from my good friends who live 54 minutes from me at Microsoft. That is what I just received from trying to sign up for something through MS. Forget about it!

Saturday, August 18, 2007

You can only sell...


This picture brought back memories of my sales days with a startup company years ago. The sales funnel was always on my mind. I started in software development but I was moved to sales because I loved interacting with new people.

Years ago, a close friend who also happened to work at that same startup company as me shared a basic but profound insight. He said, "You can not sell something unless you have experienced the value yourself." In that case, we were talking about an enterprise engineering (really project) management software application. We both tried to locate specific examples of value in the product and then we based our interactions with customers on those areas.

Tonight, I experienced the value of small groups in a fresh way. I haven't been part of a small group in years. I participated in a prayer group at seminary but it wasn't what I would consider a fully functioning small group.

I gathered with a group tonight and we experienced the best of getting together in the name of Christ.

- introductions with life stories
- a well led discussion on a hard-hitting topic based in Scripture
- a leader who guided the discussion and knew what he was doing
- differing opinions and follow-up points
- good food
- a prayer time that included honest sharing from the heart
- laughter and a "buzz" of excitement during the hang-time afterwards
- new perspectives that wouldn't come on my own
- a sense of mission and purpose in why God had called the group together (beyond an inward focus)

I walked away energized and ready to continue in what God has called me to do - to encourage, lead and equip disciples in community to engage our Internet-driven culture with the gospel of Jesus Christ.

I experienced the value.

I want to share that value (sell it) and invite others to enter into God's working and life-giving influence (or the kingdom of God).

Friday, August 17, 2007

Two hours


Tonight, I had my first official "meeting" with a few members of Maple Valley Presbyterian Church or as some of my friends like to call it "MVP" church.

Tonight, I remembered why I sensed the call into full time church ministry. I love Jesus Christ and I love seeing God at work in the lives of real people. I came into the meeting expecting to hear some stories and to get a glimpse of the small group ministry at this church. I encountered SO much more than that admittedly small expectation.

I encountered people who are passionate about God because they have experienced God's grace in their lives and they want to share that grace with everyone.
I encountered people who do not want to "play church" but want to truly participate in God's mission here and now.
I encountered people who have been praying for months and years for the person who was going to fill the position in which I am serving.
I encountered people who have convictions and they are willing to sacrifice in order to live by them.
I encountered people who care.
I encountered people who expect God to do amazing things because God has shown up in the past, God shows up in the present, and God will show up in the future.

I encountered people who encouraged me and set the bar high for me (and that is exactly what I needed tonight).

The only issue is they want and expect me to "convert" to being a Seattle Seahawk fan and that is going to take more than a miracle!

I am refreshed, challenged, and humbled by what is before me but that is exactly when God has used me in ways that I could not have imagined in the past. I'm looking forward to whatever the Lord Jesus Christ wants to do in and through me going forward.

Go Seahawks?

Monday, August 13, 2007

First Day...


In many ways, I feel like it is the night before my first day of school. I haven't felt like this in years. I didn't really get this type of feeling before I started at Princeton Seminary but I have "that" feeling tonight.

I start at Maple Valley Presbyterian Church tomorrow morning and I have a mixed feeling of being nervous and ready to go all at the same time. I helped lead in worship this morning and my family was introduced to the congregation. I really have no idea what it will feel like tomorrow. I have a set of initial tasks to complete right away but most of my day will be spent making phone calls and initial connections.

Let's see what happens... here comes the next chapter, stay tuned for some details.

Friday, August 10, 2007

Feeling great.... for a moment


The picture above shows the outcome of my toilet fixing experience today - CRACKED!

I have never been a big "house project" guy. In fact, I have many memories of wanting to climb into a hole whenever my Dad would call me out to garage to put anything together. I mean ANYTHING.

Laurie and I bought our first house after our wedding 6+ years ago. I put my best effort at a variety of projects. My most rewarding moment was installing a garage door opener (later, it almost collapsed and smashed our cars). I learned a lot from a neighbor who demonstrated great patience with me and he taught me some basic things.

Years later (now), I am a home owner again and I have been taking on all kinds of projects the past few days. I have actually enjoyed all of them and my confidence has been growing every day. Today, I decided to fix the toilet in the girls' bathroom and I took on the task with a sure plan. In fact, I replaced the entire inside and everything was working perfectly.

I felt great...

until I tightened the handle with one more turn of the wrench and then the entire back part cracked and water spilled out everywhere.

I went from a super high to a super low.

I called one of the men who helped me earlier in the week for advice. He encouraged me by saying, "Jeff, we all have to start somewhere. At least you are trying, there is a lot to say for that. You will never make that same mistake again and you should see the crack as a positive and not as a negative."

A great word from a wise man. In many ways, he described discipleship with those words. As followers of Christ, we all have to start somewhere. I know that I have "cracked many toilets" in my faith journey and I'm sure that I will crack a few more in the next week as I start at Maple Valley Presbyterian.

Anyone else have some "home-improvement" stories to share?

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Beyond Comprehension


Today, 7 men from Maple Valley Presbyterian Church showed up at my new home to help with numerous projects. In addition, a person coordinated the donation of some appliances that arrived earlier in the week. I witnessed some of the greatest serving hearts today. The group took on project after project without any questions or concerns. They were there to help and they wouldn't take no for answer. One member stayed with one project for over an hour even though he should have given up after 10 minutes. One helper put so much effort into the work that he split his jeans!!!

I am in awe of God's grace in my life and I saw it manifested in the form of new friends today. In many ways, I realized just how selfish I am with my time and how I need to answer the call of obedience in my life when others need help.

I was humbled today by the help of some faithful followers of Christ.
I was freshed today by the some faithful followers of Christ.
I was definitely helped by some faithful followers of Christ.

Now it is my turn to be faithful with what God has given me to do...

When was the last time you experienced God's grace in a manner that was beyond comprehension?

Monday, August 06, 2007

We made it!



My family made it across the country yesterday with little to zero issues. I am in awe of how God provided for us throughout the journey. Both Cambria and Avery experienced the trip as an adventure as opposed to a long, arduous disaster. We flew out of Washington Dulles at 4:30, connected through Chicago and arrived in Seattle at 9 PM PST.

The main issue was the connection in Chicago. Once again, I realized how much I am still unable to determine how long an event takes with two little children. We stopped to eat a 'quick' dinner in the food court but by the time it was all said and done we were the last ones to board our flight. That is not an issue if you are single and alone. For us, however, that meant that I had to carry the carseat (for Avery) all the way to the back of the plane and I probably was "that guy" who knocked no less than 5 people in the head with it. I was sweating profusely and extremely embarrassed (and guilt-ridden because I didn't even consider the ramifications of choosing my chicken quesadilla over an early boarding).

Who helped us out? Two Mormon missionaries gave up their seats so that Laurie and the girls could sit together. I sat numerous rows ahead of them and ended up checking on them periodically throughout the flight. By God's grace, both girls fell asleep and Laurie was able to enjoy her Harry Potter book.

I may have spent multiple years refuting the legitimacy of Joseph Smith as a true prophet but that didn't matter a bit when the two LDS missionaries stepped up to help us in a time of need. I have something to learn from that... Don't we all?

We are now in Maple Valley, WA and our moving truck arrives tomorrow (Monday). The events are moving quickly but they are going really well.

These are not the normal 'thoughts as i go' because they do not relate to theology, the church, or small group ministries but these reflections describe the pressing moments at hand.

Friday, August 03, 2007

Moving (finally)




Saturday 8/4 finally brings the flight to Maple Valley. Laurie, Cambria, Avery, me and Laurie's Mom Linda are taking off from Dulles Airport at 4:30 PM and arriving in Seattle near 9 PM PST.

We have been giving 150% for weeks, months, years and now we are finally making the transition out to the Pacific Northwest. Today, I had mixed feelings regarding the change. On the one hand, I definitely will miss my extended family and the opportunities to see friends without any major flight plans. I honestly have no idea just how much the change will impact me but that is a risk that I was willing to take when I decided to ask God to "send me wherever he wanted to send me."

On the other hand, I cannot wait to start at Maple Valley Presbyterian Church. The excitement has been brewing for months and today I feel like it has gone to the next level. I am excited about starting fresh with my family in a new place. I am excited about what God has called me to at MVPC. I am excited about encouraging, leading and equipping small group leaders. I am excited about following Christ along with Laurie in a new place.

I am moving (finally)...

See you on the other side of the U.S.

Saturday, July 28, 2007

The Next Chapter



The title of this post, "The Next Chapter," doesn't refer directly to the next movie or book in the Harry Potter series. In fact, I am about to transition into my next chapter of life. Tomorrow, I will be officially ordained as a pastor in the Presbyterian Church (USA) denomination. The process has taken over 3 years to complete and I have had more than enough time to examine my sense of call and be examined by others. I am in awe of how much has happened in the last 3 years.

Last night, I went to see Harry Potter Order of the Phoenix with Laurie. I am not a massive Harry Potter fan but I have enjoyed the movies (one day I'll read the books after I finish Church Dogmatics).

I really enjoyed last night's movie. I particularly connected with the scene when Harry Potter takes aside a group of students who want to go beyond theory and head knowledge. They come together to practice spells and to prepare for actual battles.

I couldn't help but connect with the parallel in my life now because I am about to transition from seminary to full-time church ministry. In many ways, I have been in the world of theory without connecting with the real world. I am anticipating numerous new friends and colleagues but also many challenges.

The last aspect of last night's movie that hit home with me was the theme of fighting for something worthwhile. I am convinced more than ever that my next chapter of life is worth the energy and effort. I have no idea just how much my life will change but I have been told to be ready.

Movies like Harry Potter and numerous other ones that feature a character who must step up to challenges help me refocus my energy toward the challenges ahead.

The next chapter is about to begin...

Monday, July 23, 2007

Computer Machine Language = Statement of Faith?



Last week, I went out to Seattle for my ordination examination on the Seattle Presbytery floor. I had a healthy dose of nervousness as the time approached but I also was confident that I could respond to questions about my beliefs and life experiences.

One of the requirements for the Presbyterian church ordination is to write a statement of faith and respond to questions about the content. I decided to write a straightforward statement without any flowery analogies or sentimental word pictures. One of my goals was to present my beliefs in a way that would allow for questions about the content and then my response in the form of stories that described how my beliefs translate into real, everyday life.

As I reflected on my approach, my mind jumped to my former occupation of software development. My main area of expertise was user-interface design. My goal in that area was always to create a presentation layer so that any person could use the computer application without being tied down by the details that went on "behind the scenes."

In many ways, my response to theological questions often follows the same sequence, meaning that I often know the "machine language" underneath but my responses to questions are more "user-friendly" than simply stating the Nicene Creed or my statement of faith. I have a long way to go on this but I am learning how to do it.

Here is my statement of faith that I shared with the Seattle Presbytery last week:

I believe in the triune God whom Scripture bears witness as the God of history with the people of Israel and the God of the new covenant with all humanity in Jesus Christ. By the Holy Spirit human persons are incorporated into Christ and receive adoption as children of God. The confession of the triune God summarizes the witness of Scripture of God’s immeasurable love incarnate in Jesus Christ and experienced and celebrated by the Spirit in the community of faith, the church. The triune God provides the gift of justification by grace through faith in the form of a new identity in Christ and the grace for the community to grow into that identity. Just as the Father sent the Son, and the Father and Son send the Holy Spirit, the triune God sends the church into the world to bear witness to the gospel and serve all people.

I believe in God the Father who created the heavens and the earth and sustains all creation. God chose Abraham and his seed to be blessed in order to be a blessing to the nations. God liberated Israel from Egypt and sent prophets to remind Israel of their covenantal responsibilities. In the fullness of time, God sent his Son not to condemn the world but to save it.

I believe in Jesus Christ who is the Son of God, both fully God and fully human, and he is the image of the invisible God. He was sent in order to destroy the power of sin and death. He reconciled humanity to God through his sinless life, atoning death on the cross, and resurrection. The person and work of Jesus Christ opened the covenant to Gentiles. I believe that he ascended to heaven where he sits at God’s right hand in power as the mediator for each believer and as Lord over all. I believe that Jesus Christ will come again to judge humanity and to consummate his reign.

I believe in the Holy Spirit who was sent as the promised gift who convicts the world with regard to sin, righteousness and judgment. The Holy Spirit regenerates the believer and then sanctifies the believer by transforming them into the likeness of Jesus Christ. The Holy Spirit reveals truth through the witness of Scripture to Jesus Christ.

I believe that the church, led by the Spirit, exists to bear witness to Jesus Christ through the preaching of the Word, administration of the sacraments, and serving others.

I believe that the Bible is the written Word of God that bears witness to Jesus Christ. The Bible is inspired and authoritative in all matters of life and faith.

I believe that Baptism and the Lord’s Supper are sacraments that function as both signs and the means of God’s grace toward sinners.

I believe in God the Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit are one God in three distinct personal expressions who are working together for the reconciliation of humanity to God and to one another. This triune God sends the covenant people to be witnesses of the gospel to the world in word and deed.


For many, that statement may seem like theological "machine language" but the content underlies my worldview shaped by Jesus Christ.